Mended by Angie Smith

Somehow, late in the day yesterday I stumbled upon this book. As I read the first chapter I knew it was a book worth reading. She lost her fourth child and was grieving, as she wrote her blog over 4 plus years pieces of it were turned into this book. The first chapter talks about how for therapy purposes she smashed a pitcher and then glued the pieces back together. This is an excerpt from chapter 1.

Mended: Pieces of a Life Made Whole
By Angie Smith

“The image of my life as a broken pitcher was beautiful to me, but at the same time, it was hard to look at all of the cracks. I ran my fingers along them and told Him I wished it had been different. I wished I had always loved Him, always obeyed Him, always sought Him the way I should. I was mad at the imperfections, years wasted, gaping holes where it should be smooth.
But God, my ever-gracious God, was gentle and yet convicting as He explained.
My dearest Angie. How do you think the world has seen Me? If it wasn’t for the cracks, I couldn’t seep out the way I do. I chose the pitcher. I chose you, just as you are.”

Excerpt From: Smith, Angie. “Mended.” B&H Publishing Group, 2012. iBooks.
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Well done Ms. Thomas, well done!

Others Destruction

Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace ~ Dalai Lama

Yesterday I wrote a blog titled “I wish I could control other people”. You’ll never read that blog. I also wrote a letter to someone that they will never receive. I also prayed to God about somethings that you’ll never hear about. Sometimes there are things that best be left unsaid but need to get out of my mind none-the-less, so I write them down and then burn them up. Or I cast them all on Jesus because he cares about them.

Cast all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7

We were all created equal and have equal opportunity to do with our individual lives what we please. God has a plan for each of us and regardless of what others do with the minutes they’ve been given on this earth or regardless of the decisions they make, they get to make them and live this thing out just like I have the freedom to do. They problem is sometime the choices of others hurt you, or affect your life, or worse yet hurt the people you love and you just wish that you could grab them by the scruff of their neck and shake some sense into them.

When my eyes laid sight of the words: Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace. I knew i had uncovered wisdom.

The last couple of days have been hard on me because drama abounds, peoples decisions have disrupted my inner peace and I’ve let it effect me. I returned to God this morning with wailing and sorrow because in some ways I blame myself for the distress others feel today. A lot of this is the repercussion of sin committed in my tender age of 23….to not listen to God and go my own way. The choice and series of choices that I shouldn’t have made has produced lasting sorrow that continues to reveal itself as we live out this thing called life. The interesting part of it all is that I wouldn’t change a thing. Well I guess I would, if I could be at this very place, in this very moment, with these very people in my lovely home but that couldn’t be, without that one bad decision.

I am thankful that it is true that God works all things together for good. I am thankful that He loves me and wants me despite my shortcomings and sin. I am glad that God is not mad at me. I am thankful that when God looks at me He sees the righteousness of Christ and I am thankful that I am the one that gets to model that for my kids.

The Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom and back when the choice to not listen to God was made, wisdom was not around because I didn’t fear the Lord. I fear the Lord now, I am called to be obedient, I am reminded that He is all I need, He should be all I want and He will make even this sad moment in my loved ones lives work together for HIS greater purpose. I plead the blood of Jesus to cover this and to restore my heart to a right place and to be filled with the peace that passes all understanding. Because the understanding I have needs a lot of peace to get passed it!

And thus, i will not let the behavior others destroy my inner peace.

To God be the Glory!

(oh and by the way have you heard about the wise man Solomon and how he fell hard and learned a lot?….I have and you’ll be hearing about him next. Stay tuned)

The problem with a good husband

The problem with a good husband is that they are delightfully distracting. When you have a great husband not much writing or blogging gets done on vacation. You almost always sleep in and there isn’t much desire to think about work or worry about the future. Thats the problem with a good husband.

Not much of a problem if you ask me. My guy is the biggest darned blessing thats ever been bestowed upon me. Vacation is a true vacation with him. We work together to be sure the other is rested and well taken care of. My husband challenges me to do things I may not do on my own, like walk miles to a sand dune in order to climb to the top and look over the edge. He encourages lazy days and understands the value of rest. He laughs and makes me laugh. He talks about the deeper things in life and instructs me in God’s word but he also readily watches the bachelorette and understands my need for meaningless recreation. The problem with a good husband is that you never want to leave vacation and when you get home you want to run back to the beach.

I write this today because I love him and I have lots of other things to write about and share but most important to me is this guy who chose to become part of my life and love my family and make it his own. This is what fairytales are made of and where unicorns and rainbows reside.

Its important for me to reflect on the greatness of God’s design. He works all things together for good. He orchestrates the universe and that ocean is the most faithful, thought provoking place in all of the world. The ocean makes God bigger and more mysterious then ever. The ocean reminds me that my blessings are huge. The ocean is the place where my questions are answered and this time it is where God reminded me that He made all things new in my life and Brek Daniel is a good problem to have.

The sun reflecting off the waters, the birds floating graceflly through the air, the waves faithfully moving in and out, rolling…waves of mercy, waves of grace…righteouss waves…full of justice. the wave of God brings what is due to those who deserve, both blessing and discipline. The shore line extends both ways..grain after grain of sand, piled up endlessly upon each other millions, billions..trillions…endlessly, to many to count.

Solom received breadth of mind like the sand on the seashore because he humbly asked for wisdom to lead the people. His people were as numerous as the sand on the sea (1 kings 4:29 & 29) perhaps this is why god gave him wisdom and largeness of heart to hold as much wisdom as the sands on the shore? God gives us what we need, when we need it, faithfully like the ocean…gently like the wave but with a fierceness that will not be challenged.

Trust and the fear of the Lord is the only way. It is where wisdom comes from. Obedience is the pathway and by binding love and faithfulness around our neck (proverbs 3:2), sound judgement and discretion will be the adornment on your neck(Proverbs 3:22).

It is true…trusting and loving God, being faithful to Him, brought me to a place of sound judgement, a place of discretion and beauty. Obedience made me whole and gave me an opportunity to be available to a good man who is obedient to God himself. The problem with a good husband is a good problem to have. I’ll be distracted by him all the days of my life.

I’m learning that the book of Proverbs calls man to live as the creator intended him to live when He made man. To let Christ be our dwelling place. The wise live long prosperous lives, experiencing joy.

Contemplate the mind of God, His Character, His attributes, His works, His blessings. For all the treasure of wisdom and knowledge expressed in proverbs are hidden in Christ. (Colossians 2:3)