God is on your team

Who shall separate us form the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:  “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”  No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us       (Romans 8:35-37)

      Yes I’m still reading and reviewing and loving this book “Ruthless” by Bo Stern.  She has really done a bang up job with this one.  You can just read right through and enjoy every word or work your way through thinking on and working through each question.  Nice model indeed.  Please plan on purchasing this book in a couple months!

     Today in the book, I’m reminded that God is on my team or rather I’m on his?….whichever, we fight the same fight and win the same wins.  It’s a good concept for me today because I’ve felt a little solitary this week.  Seems like there is pressure from all sides and the chips aren’t falling in my favor.  Conversations have been difficult and self-evaluation has been grueling. 

    I know I’m my own worst enemy and that can be paralyzing.  I often times fell like I’ve come up short and what I do isn’t good enough. I feel responsible for the success and failure of my children, my finances, my business, my health, my everything.  I think the truth of it as is that although I have a part to play, God is ultimately the team captain in my life and because He’s on my team, I don’t win or loose alone!

    Its important for me to remind myself of this often.  Being in a battle, with yourself or others, no matter how big or how small requires the assurance that God is on your team!  If not for God all would be a lose, nothing would have meaning and depression would take you down.  Today is a good day to remember that God is on your team!

I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Verses 38-39)

Smile Restorer

Have you ever smiled at the camera when you were dying on the inside?  How about in the hallway? When you pass someone at church do you smile a big ol’ grin just to hide the truth on the inside?

I have.  I did this for years.  No one was the wiser(well most people) to the pain that was drowning me.  But I smiled through it and when I look back on those smiles they look different, I can see right past them and today I wonder…is there anyone in my life that is smiling while dying inside? 

Is your smile fake?  I would like to say that I can help.  I know I can’t fix everything and actually I can’t FIX most things but I might just have something that you need or a word of encouragement that will get you to the next step.  I might know the way out from behind that fake smile of yours.  If that’s you, please contact me and lets have coffee or tea or lunch or just a quick phone call. 

My smile is real now.

   Paul_241 

I found a way out from behind the fake smile, I had time to allow the Lord to repair my heart and my smile came back.  There is a difference you know

. fake smile (2) photo

These pictures are taken 5 years apart.  You can see the freedom and rest and peace in that woman’s face on the right.  You can see there is nothing to hide.  Fake smiles look like smiles but you can see that there is something behind the pearly white teeth..a secret. sadness.

This weekend my family and I went crabbing.  I sat and watched the ocean, for hours.

oceanSomething about the rhythm of the waves and the consistency of God’s great design that brings you back to your core.  It resets your fast paced life and leads you to a place of remembrance of God’s glory and His testimony in your life.  We smiled all weekend long.

kidsbeachcouplenoahmomdaughter

Please don’t get me wrong…I don’t always smile.  As a matter of fact, you can ask my husband, I have the freedom not to smile and he is ok with it.  Well, he prefers a smile but he understands there are days when I may not have one and he helps me find it again.  I don’t have to fake it. 

I don’t know why I’m so fascinated by the smiles in my life or even why it continues to surprise me that God does things like ‘restores smiles’ but He does.  My family is a testament and those were not empty words when I offered to help you find yours again.  I think I just found my new calling in life…woman who leads others to find their smile.  Take a risk and take me up on my offer.  Send me a note or leave your email below.  I know how to find your smile again!

The “But’s” of life

I worry.  I do, I know that I write on this blog about the greatness of God and His faithfulness.  I write about trusting Him and believing in Him but the truth is I don’t always heed my own advice or listen to wisdom.  I often times get caught up in this world and let my worries take me for a stroll.  I forsake God and His promises and I get sucked into the abyss…

“Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal.” – Isaiah 26:4

Yes, you and I should trust in the Lord forever BUT….

It’s the BUT that always stinksSmile

Last night my husband was dreaming about having property someday where he could have a shop to play in and a tractor to drive and a view to see.  He just wants some space and for 1/2 a million dollars, he had found just the perfect spot. 

I crushed him, right then and there….I really did.  First of all we can’t even pay our property taxes right now, let alone think about some nice property with a view and some space.  I have two expensive kids with needs and wants and they all cost money.  I have really expensive bills at work that have me locked into payments for 5 years and the healthcare system that we work in is a little unstable right now.  Thanks Obama!  So, how on on earth, why on earth would we even dream about some beautiful property where we would have to work more on our property and work more at work just to get by….sounds horrible.

Crushed.

Sorry babe, my BUT’s in life sucked me down and then I smacked you with the BUT’s as well.

“When I am afraid I will trust in you.”
–Psalm 56:3

Its hard to do that isn’t it.  Especially because The One we trust in is kinda invisible.  I mean, yes I see signs of the living God all around me, His Holy Spirit lives right inside me but His human person is not sitting next to me on the couch or driving with me to swim practice or working with my struggling high school student. 

I can say, “When I am afraid I will trust in you”, but the truth is sometimes I only say it and I don’t live it.  When this happens, life stinks.  I’m stuck and lost and fearful and my family sees it and knows it and then I crush dreams! 

I don’t have any answers for you today because the bible says:

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matt 6:34 NIV

And since I know that today REALLY does have enough trouble of its own, I’m very concerned about this already….BUT….

Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Isaiah 40:31 NIV

Here is to soaring like an eagle and running with strength and not fainting today!