Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace ~ Dalai Lama
Yesterday I wrote a blog titled “I wish I could control other people”. You’ll never read that blog. I also wrote a letter to someone that they will never receive. I also prayed to God about somethings that you’ll never hear about. Sometimes there are things that best be left unsaid but need to get out of my mind none-the-less, so I write them down and then burn them up. Or I cast them all on Jesus because he cares about them.
Cast all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
We were all created equal and have equal opportunity to do with our individual lives what we please. God has a plan for each of us and regardless of what others do with the minutes they’ve been given on this earth or regardless of the decisions they make, they get to make them and live this thing out just like I have the freedom to do. They problem is sometime the choices of others hurt you, or affect your life, or worse yet hurt the people you love and you just wish that you could grab them by the scruff of their neck and shake some sense into them.
When my eyes laid sight of the words: Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace. I knew i had uncovered wisdom.
The last couple of days have been hard on me because drama abounds, peoples decisions have disrupted my inner peace and I’ve let it effect me. I returned to God this morning with wailing and sorrow because in some ways I blame myself for the distress others feel today. A lot of this is the repercussion of sin committed in my tender age of 23….to not listen to God and go my own way. The choice and series of choices that I shouldn’t have made has produced lasting sorrow that continues to reveal itself as we live out this thing called life. The interesting part of it all is that I wouldn’t change a thing. Well I guess I would, if I could be at this very place, in this very moment, with these very people in my lovely home but that couldn’t be, without that one bad decision.
I am thankful that it is true that God works all things together for good. I am thankful that He loves me and wants me despite my shortcomings and sin. I am glad that God is not mad at me. I am thankful that when God looks at me He sees the righteousness of Christ and I am thankful that I am the one that gets to model that for my kids.
The Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom and back when the choice to not listen to God was made, wisdom was not around because I didn’t fear the Lord. I fear the Lord now, I am called to be obedient, I am reminded that He is all I need, He should be all I want and He will make even this sad moment in my loved ones lives work together for HIS greater purpose. I plead the blood of Jesus to cover this and to restore my heart to a right place and to be filled with the peace that passes all understanding. Because the understanding I have needs a lot of peace to get passed it!
And thus, i will not let the behavior others destroy my inner peace.
To God be the Glory!
(oh and by the way have you heard about the wise man Solomon and how he fell hard and learned a lot?….I have and you’ll be hearing about him next. Stay tuned)